Oh so you think I am kidding?

I took this off for a while to leave my THANK YOU up as long as possible. I just realize that when you follow a link over to here you don't get to see all the posts-just the one you followed- I didn't want anyone to miss the Thank you!

As we finally find Matthew, around the corner in the backyard of someones house- who has no idea there is a child playing back there, this happens...............

As we all sent out in different directions , on bikes, scooters and the truck to find a little boy who , after a while was missed. Wheres Matthew rang thru our house today. You have to understand and you just might, if you have ever been to grand central station aka my house.

There can be up to 9 kids running around in and out of my house at just about any time. today, no different. Except, I had Matthew close to me, he wasn't exactly up to par.

Sure, Matthew is fine, but in lots of trouble. His sister, who too got to come out her her room from being in trouble for the search- ended up in a 1 bike accident. As we watched, it was like a blow-out and a car going out of control! ONly not, a bike. No Blow out. Something strange, just took her bike and twisted her handle bars and down she went! Hitting face first on pavement with handle bars jammed where they should not be! Not good... Not good at all. If it weren't for her unable to walk like she just got off a horse and the blood running out of her nose and mouth- and other places, I would have been ok. Her teeth looked like they had been pushed back and I was unable to take anymore- the thought of dental surgery did me in!! Daddy had to take over! As it turns out, teeth are just fine, but lip is busted and nose is swelling up pretty good and turning blue! And yes, all she could do is cry and say " Oh No! I look like Matthew!" And cry more! So here it is, Child # 2 with A blown up busted lip too! Nice puffy nose job as well.....

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Coming out on the other side

I can't believe what a week I have had. Today is the first day of everything getting back to normal. Breathe.......

First I really want to do some projectile Love! I want to throw and drench you with sweetness- because I think that is what you are! I want to ESPECIALLY those of you who comment and don't even have a BLOG- Now that is awesome! I want to encourage those that read to leave a comment and not just flit by- it really means something when you just say "HI". I am so very Thankful for you gals that send me love and encouragement through your comments! I would like to re- innerate how helpful and wonderful this is.. No, really- I really really can't tell you how grateful I am for the communication!
Yes, I am still in my pajama's.... but.... Thank you!!!!!!

And this is my Husband making fun of me because I am doing this!

and YES, this is for YOU! I am Pointing at YOU!MAAWAAH! As my Husband is now rolling while trying to take picture..... I am not good at sending kisses I guess..

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What a Day.... a very horrible one.

I started to name this " I found the straw, you know, the one that broke the camels back!"
Because today was one of the worst days I could ever think of- that is until I got home and this evening heard such saddening news of a couple we used to go to church with - in the early twenties with a 3 year old- found out he died of a heart attack. I know he is with Jesus- no doubt. But I am so sad for Amanda and Addy and some how, regardless of whatever.... that the Lord gives them abundant peace during this sad time.

After finding out that today, all of a sudden my day no longer was entirely horrible- though, it ranked pretty high.

Today is the day that Matthew would have the work done on his teeth and due to him being little- our Dr. used a common sedative on him with the anesthesia so that he would be able to do what needed to be done. It went great, Matthew did very good for the procedures. I am so unimaginably grateful for these people that the Lord has placed in our lives here. during the summer with all the emergency- dental we had to do for Josh we ended up at the Children's Dentistry place. Great, love them, then we find a church and low and behold there they are. Genuine people who love the Lord. Had it not been for this fact about them that I know- today, very well could have been one that committed me as well as been very very bad for everyone.

I knew something was wrong when I walked into the surgery area to get Matthew and his eyes glared at me as though I was a stranger coming to abduct him. One of the most scariest times for me I can say, when intuition kicks in and you know somethings about ready to hit the fan. Well, it did, as I fought this frail 4 year old in my arms just to get him to the "quiet room" for the sedation to wear off, the Dr. tells me how well he did and how well the procedures went- assures me he will be fine and needs time to come out of the sedation. OMG- there is no way, anyone could have convinced me that this sweet child would do in the next 5 hours. I have never seen anything like this -except on horror flix- sad to say. I have never been more concerned for my own child than today as he flailed his head and body numerous times to try to hurt himself, as he bit his lip so hard numerous times to where his teeth went thru, and his eyes darkened with hate and he tried throwing chairs and hurting Josh and I as we sat there in shock trying to calm and comfort him, once his words unslurred, the things he didn't say, from bodily functions to a bloody mess- I thought I was going to pass out. I woke up this morning, talking myself into positiveness for the sake of Matthew- but my body ached like it hadn't ached in a while, my throat still felt swollen shut and I surely am on the downside on this cold- but 3 days to get over something that smacked me so fast was a bit much. You see, Josh did so well with his root canal this summer- I knew Matthew would do great as well! I have never fought so hard to keep a child from hurting himself- ever in my life. This totally takes the cake with anything I have ever been through. I have never been present when someone was causing physical harm to them self and this was horrid! I am so thankful for the Doctor coming in and having to assist in making him quit biting his lip, we knew that was a side effect, heck as adults we even are tempted to do it when we leave the dentist from being numbed up! But this was, a fit beyond what I have ever experienced. I can't count the things in this time period today that he hit with his head or kicked- he was slapping and punch his own face- I did everything I could to hold his hands down. I was finally able to call Dewayne, eventually he showed up and in shock, there was no way he could understand what was happening- I couldn't explain, I was so upset. Apparently this is a bad reaction to the sedative. Some kids it happens to, some no problem. There are so many things that happened I can't even talk about it- I still can't believe this happened to him just from what seemed to be so calming in the beginning. I think the worst thing about it, beside the lip brutalized but numerous biting, was him trying so hard not to do what he was doing after a while, he would collapse and cry (hours later) and say I not want to do that- and say ooooooooooh and slam his shoe across the room into a wall and go at it again. Beside thinking I was going to have to take him to the Hospital after the dentist- besides his huge gashes in his lip and below where he bit thru, it was a horrible experience. I have held him most of the day and poured drinkable yogurt and pudding down him as much as possible. He is still not back to himself. I don't know if I will ever forget that look- I can't think of a more horrible thing as a mother. I tell you, I have an entire new perspective on drug addictions and addicts- if this is any clue to how it changes someone immediately to where you wouldn't even know them. What can you do- really? You can be there for them, you can love them, try to keep them from hurting their self, but really- what can you do? I pray I never witness anything like this ever again.

I pray he never remembers the things he said or did.



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Preaching Baby!

Thanks Robin for the video! Wow this is something else!

http://www.apostoliclive.com/play.php?vid=492


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Is it just me or.....

has anyone read the headline lately? People coming back to life after being dead. President reaches out to Muslims, highest ratings ever. Political Corruption at an all time high ( and still a Kennedy involved), disasters, murders, Oprah for Senate- What??? Yes, Cold medicine has Not did me in- I know all of the above is mostly encouragement by the media at best=) How about that Citicorp Jet? Sorry I am one of those that find Blago entertaining- he's got ***** Spunk=)) can't wait to see whats revealed...... Tot mom still hold out on not having a clue? Wow.

Cartoons it is for me today! Ice and all.

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Run over by a Mac truck?

Did anyone get the licence plate? Because I sure feel like that what happened! Sure had a busy weekend- with Kori's party, then the weather turning nasty and cold, then today I wake up SICK and achy! What the heck!!!!!!! Not to mention Birthday girl wants to eat CiCi's for her birthday- YUK! I am doing everything possible to get well and for Matthew not to get sick- he has surgery on his teeth on Thursday and has to be well for the anesthesia!!!!!!! Figures right?

Actually, I am going to utilize this to rant. It makes me so mad that when everyone else is sick- they get taken care of, but when I get sick- who cares! Not to mention, this is all my husbands fault for getting sick last week and bringing it home! Everyone was at his beckon call of course- the way it should be...Humm.... So today I took medicine and slept(haha- yeah right!) most of the day as my kids destroyed the house. I am so tired of never getting a break~!Its no different when it comes to discipline either. I am tired of always being the one 24/7- because other people have much more important things to do. Everything I do is subject to interruption! When is my day off? Oh, my gosh, I miss the days of working outside of the home! I miss the Respect. If I didn't know for a fact it would spell marital disaster I would be gone- I mean I would do it in a heart beat! I miss adult conversations! Scratch that, I miss ANY conversations, I miss someone else taking care of kids 8-12 hours of my day- I love teachers and daycares!! Then picking them up , going thru take out and bath and bed! OOOOh those were the days ! Quality parenting and life worth lived!Don't think I am kidding either. Breaks and lunches, PR events, Paid Vacations, raises and bonus's, compliments, gifts, daily accomplishments, pay for work well done, need I continue? For a moment I thought I was going to flip out, but I am better now. though, if I hear another sappy story about love, obedient kids or a single child drama I may have to boycott TV and blogs! hahaha

I will leave this with the picture I took of Kori and I walking down the street on the day of her party- watching her brother ride his bike with her balloons and windmills tied to his bike! Some Happy thoughts... Just to see him ride so fast and feel so free- ahhh to be a kid again

Aparently I must have been sick here to- by the looks of it!

Maybe I can just blame this on cold medicine!!

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Happy Birthday Kori! My 100th Post! Yay!

How perfect to have my 100th post and to have it land on my Sweet Girls Birthday Party! I would love nothing more than to post in Honor of her! Is that getting ridiculous or a true sign of an addict?!!

First of all, I LOVE Birthday parties! Some of you have followed/know me through the years and know I love to party! This party was great! Kori (as usual) said it was her favorite one! She also said that last year when we were out in 30 degree weather, wading through mud- riding horses and petting goats for her Pony party! So Kori loves everything! I seem to get stuck in a rut alot of times and feel like children really do not grow up and of course, with that , they stay the same. She showed real signs of change this go around! She has grown more particular about things and was pretty funny about where ALL her presents were being kept(What??)- days leading up to the party. So onward with an 8 year old now!

Party turned out terrific! The theme was CandyLand- which has endless possibilities- all candy related of course! As the weather has been beautiful all week and in the mid- to high 80's- We thought of doing some things outdoors.

I had a really cute idea of taking colored paper and making a board walk-way to the house- continuing it through out the party scene. I got lots of balloons to follow the path- only to wake up to 25 degree- weather with 1000mph gusts of wind and not much sign of it warming up! Needless to say, there went my outdoor plans! We made our paper game board inside and everything turned out great! We started with making candy necklaces, then a gumball guess. We played Candyland-competitively and a puzzle race! Daddy Crowned the Princess- the crown made it on for a whole 5 seconds! We had lunch, I knew I should only be fair and give the children something besides Candy! Thanks to my friend Lori who made the Mac N Cheese & was a huge help, we had that and PB&J's- just before we hit the Sundae Bar. The cake was pretty massively loaded down with candy- but it turned out really great, we had tried to keep it similar to the game board. I have pictures.... But I am addicted to natural light- even at the cost of not great pictures! So you have to excuse the pics!

I also have to say, I have found the answer to the birthday present opening frenzy! I had found on another blog, that this girl had a game where you put color spot on the chairs and when its time to open gifts- each child goes and gets their present and sits quietly in a chair. The Birthday child spins a color wheel or rolls a color block- and the color it lands on- that child brings them their gift to open and everyone sits quietly and watches the gift unwrapped until it is their turn to bring their present. This was absolutely fantastic! Before, opening presents has always been a sore spot in the party due to everyone on top of the one another opening the gifts. Like feeding frenzied Coi! In times past, we never knew who brought what and everything got opened and dispersed. Not to mention the child never really got to focus on who brought what and thank you's! This time, she was able to Thank each child for her gifts- it was Awesome! I highly recommend this! I know I will do this from now on!

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Preparing to go to CandyLand!

As I try to get ready for Kori's 8th birthday party- I wanted to pull out some pictures and reflect! This will probably be my last post until Sat. at least, since I have choosen to put everything off to the last minute of course and now I have to buckle down and figure out what I will do with her party. Got the theme down, got the supplies, everything I think we will do will be with candy- so I got candy! I bought some sand buckets at the Dollar Tree in lieu of the "goodie bags" hoping that it will provide enough room for everyone to take all the candy with them! We are making the decorations as well- tonight I suppose. So needless to say I will be busy and won't be online for a while=) So off to CandyLand!

We really can't believe our sweet baby girl is going to be 8! I guess when you do look back- it went FAST!

Believe it or not she still sleeps with the big yellow bear
We thought this made a cute pic- can you find Kori?
Kori with big brother- 4Months

Kori 9months

At a year

Almost 3

She is 5

Hard to believe, this was taken last year on her 7th Birthday!

As I look at these pictures and remember not having a clue what she might turn out like, I realize there is just no possible way to figure out the future when it comes to what they will look like or act like- because every year they truly change! We are so blessed to have such a Sweet Girl!








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Have you put your man in the DOG HOUSE before?

As we started a new series at church Sunday about marriage, they played this video- I thought it was hilarious! You know I think its an add for JC Penny for jewelry- I had never seen it before- at any rate, its funny!

This is a great bide-me-over until I can get these meme's posted from being tagged and awards handed out! Thank you all for being so sweet to me!
DEFINITELY WATCH THIS VIDEO- IT WILL MAKE YOU LAUGH!Not to mention, posting it will help me not talk about the first Lady in that 8th grade -80's coronation dress she had on last night!OMG!!!!!!!!!!


http://bewareofthedoghouse.com/VideoPage.aspx


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Embracing Change: Inauguration 2009

They call it Obamamania! I suppose Obamanation would be in appropriate- get it Nation?

As we embrace change, we say goodbye to what we will all look back on as a good President and classy first lady and say Hello to change. Our world is a world of opportunity and its the smart ones that seize that moment. I believe that is how and why President Obama is now our President. I am thankful that he has now paved the way. From now on, we will be able to put skin color aside and will be able to make well informed decisions based on important and detrimental topics. The New President will not only bring change but it will bring a cleansing to our nation, we will be able to move forward and get past the one thing we are saying keeps us behind- equality of all people. We can endure the 4 years if we finally accomplish the equality of all. I am sure we will rise stronger and more determined as a people of unity for it. I can't help but feel sorry for those that will be surprisingly hurt during these times, we have been such a secure nation and I feel we will let our shields down to prove we want unity with all. Sadness comes from knowing evil is evil and can not unite with Good. Of course we want everyone to be good, but our world news shows us, that evil exists as we live on its turf. That can not be changed- because we know who the prince of this land is.. We have what these other countries want- that in its self is enough to protect it.

As millions pack into DC for the Historic moment in our Nation to begin, we gear up to celebrate and prepare to encourage our New President towards a mighty endeavor. I am not sure if ever there have been more challenges for a presidency as the ones this President will soon face. For alot of us it brings insecure feelings at the thought of all those who have and will be appointed into key positions of Government and what seems to be a "Oh well thats No big deal World". I suppose things have to be this way and we should only hope that the economy bounces its way back up and the terrorists go away and that making good business decisions for a country is no big deal.

I really think President Obama is a good guy and will do his best. He has only displayed the act of wanting to truly bind together everyone and that is a good thing. However as I said in the above, I will feel sorry for those who think they will never have to pay taxes again or work for a pay check, I will feel sorry for those that feel this man has come to give them freedom not to pay their bills. It totally baffles me that this is real and that people have misunderstood someone who has been very clear of his intentions as President. At any rate, its an exciting time in our life and we are going to spend the day Celebrating it! I was a little envious that we lived much closer to DC 6-7 months ago and how easy it would have been to go there to be apart in person. But with the Millions upon Millions that will be there- I will gladly sit in my warm abode and watch it from the comfort of my sofa!

My family and I will pray for our Presidents safety and success!!
I MUST ADD THIS.....

What a wonderful outfit, very elegant and classy dress/Jacket the First Lady had on today! Whew! She had me worried there for a while! But this was Awesome- she truly looks like a First Lady!

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Putting the Pieces together!

Sunday Rainbow over Israel- Gaza strip. Is it just me, or is that an Awesome sight!
That picture strangely is exactly what I mean today by putting all the pieces together- Man can put all the borders they want- Israel is Israel. Amazing.

Have you ever walked into a room and felt-something is just not right?
Have you ever had a new friend, but you just couldn't pin-point what the deal was or wasn't?
Have you ever woke up from an exhaustive nights sleep and wondered whats this all about anyway?
Feel guilty even thinking these thoughts because your a believer? A follower of Jesus.
Wonder where do you fit in? How can you Not fit in at a church? You are a believer, they are believers- whats the deal? That answer could be endless- a huge puzzle with lots of missing pieces..... Maybe your in the wrong religion, not in the right church- oh its endless. I use a simple equation that has kept me from drowning in religious lies. Evaluate the situation- are you being Condemned? or Convicted? Conviction comes from the Lord, He wants us to turn to Him in all things. Condemnation is from the pits of hell- most of the time it is someone else pushing their beliefs onto you-not the Word itself- somehow its turns out that you are bad and you have to do what they do to become good.. Having been in church my entire life, I couldn't pin-point exact what the deal was, I couldn't put my finger on it, I knew something wasn't right- but didn't know exactly what it was.... Sux.. This left me feeling like I wasn't one of them,because I didn't fit in with them. They are ALL nice, but something still isn't right. I know the problem lies with in my heart, it has to be me- they all carry their bibles in their cars- I don't know where I left mine last. I have a relationship with Jesus but it must not be the right one I am not in the right group- because they too say they have a relationship w/HIM. Everyone knows of someone who has gone through this? I figured out my dilemma- ok, the Holy Spirit revealed some major life changing things to me today! Sometimes I believe we stay where we are put and not where we are led. That's all I will say about that. My basic innate needs are to be intertwined with those I feel I will be intertwined with in Heaven. I am a groupie, the more the merrier! Add another friend to the pile person. I feel the same way as a believer. I don't just have one best friend I do everything with and then shut everyone else out-except on Sunday, like not invite people to this or to that or only have group events when someone in the know is watching. I want everyone to be apart- and I have taken much heat in my past from that. Glad to.
I evaluated things today. I walk into church- a sea of people. As I find my place in the pew,to my right chocolate brown skin, to my left an Asian blend, I look around-marriages intertwined in colors, milky white skins and off tan blended with reds and olives. Rainbow effect. Oh, How superficial- what exactly am I looking for I ask myself? Our Pastors: the reflection of the sea of congregation- Chocolate, Milky White, Asian and all sorts of blends- lots of blends. Naaa, thats not it. Here is some statistics.. Did you know that 51% of Christians are divorced or have been? Guess what, that is the majority. Why is that? Are they really Christian? The remainder is made up with never married, living together and that small percent-married-never divorced . Scary. Think about that. I have always in my life had a Pastor, a Reverend who has Never been divorced, never lived together with someone outside of marriage or never been Single- outside of marrying early. They have been Awesome and still are. I am so thankful.... But.......

Get this, Why did the man who has been voted by America, a prominent Christian Nation, win the vote for President of the USA? Was it his experience? NO, it was relativity. Who you can relate with.... People voted that have never voted before, based on they felt they could relate to Pres. Obama. As most of us can say. We relate to this and we relate to that, we follow you because.... We relate. We honor you, because man, we relate... Get the picture? Today I realized why our church is so awesome. 1. the Power of God flows, He is present, we can relate. 2. We are a sea of people worshiping Him- Lord God- a visual rainbow- we can relate.. 3. Our pastors can teach from a stand point of been there and done that-wow, we can relate! Right is right and wrong is wrong and not come across offensive or belittling. The Word is the Word- it is the delivery that usually gets messed up.

I finally feel like I fit in. I get to go to church and do life together with a group of people who want more friends- who don't want to keep it to themselves- the select group, who have had all kinds of imperfections in their lives and can look beyond and catch a glimpse of what Heaven may be like- washed clean- made new. Pastors who remember what is was like- be it racial profiling or that lovely thing Christians love to pounce on the divorce badge, all kinds of humanly setbacks in life brought to light by the Lord to bring more to Him. Putting the pieces together, may sometimes mean getting close to the other kind. Have you ever seen that one piece in the puzzle that had a minute speck of a color that paired up with an odd piece and completed the scene?

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Winterism.....

As I read around the blogs today, I notice alot about the winter's bitter coldness. I cannot personally stand the winter, even though we had 70's today. I never feel like I get warm and I always feel so low- It must be the winter warlockism stuff going around!

Its been super chilly this week- some days not above freezing, its made for a difficult week to do anything- as far as I am concerned. But somehow the kids find away to not be bothered by the weather at all and still manage to do the stuff they do that drives me batty! Here is a recap, I am sure I will not be the only one to understand why I whine about never getting a "break"! this 24/7 stuff is really getting to me! Was a truly spoiled to MDO? Yes... The couple days a week break is worth its weight in gold!

First- I would like to call this MOUSE TRAP. As we live in a pasture with lots of other homes, we have the normal pasture problems- outside of sticker burrs, we have bugs, field mice etc.. So we and Orkin are good friends. Ms. Orkin was nice enough to leave me glue traps in the garage this go around- since I told her we had company- a 4ft. mouse according to my daughter. Well long story short. On the day of her friends birthday, who lives down the street, Kori and a couple of other girls where playing outside- the went in the garage because they say they heard "screaming". Only moments later,was my door flying opening to a group of hysterical, crying girls telling me it was an emergency and for me to come see. Yes, you got it, a squeaking, squealing tiny mouse- or as they called it- baby. Apparently they too had tried to free it from the trap and it was making it worse- there was where the mental anguish comes in....... Lets skip ahead. As I took the trap to the back of the house to remove it from their sight and ears- one of the little girls disappeared- it was the birthday girl! I was asking the other where did she go, where did she go? They told me she ran home crying... Omy Gosh, her party is in 45 min.! Well, we too had to ready for the party. Kori still distraught over the horrible sight she had witnessed and here the BD girl has to get through her party as she too was upset and had been crying.. Ok-Present time! As BD girl excitedly opened her gifts with great joy, she suddenly came to a big box- ohhh how exciting! She unwrapped the package and there it was a brand new game- MOUSE TRAP! Yes, she starred and it and set it down- without saying a word...... I told her parents later the story, I don't think they appreciated the punch line of all things she got "Mouse-trap"! Anyway, sickly I laughed for days on that one! No- we did not give her the game.

Next... What do little boys do with sandpaper out of daddy's tool chest? They sand with it of course, that is what it is for! As I found pieces of sand paper the other day with bright colors on it- I began to get concerned. Yellow, Blue, Red- where could this have come from? I looked at there dresser in their room- yep, sure enough, trying to sand the crayon marks off so mommy wouldn't see! Looks like now the dresser will have to be re-painted!

Finds a cool place to play..........

AS the neighborhood kids played so well today at our house- it was nice! No tattling, no injuries, no scaring or tormenting each other- just nice play. Until the door busts open and we here those magic words- "its an emergency" As Dewayne rushes outside to see whats the matter- I await the verdict- because, I already know what it is- I deal with this all the time! It was Matthew, he had stripped down bare butt and was rolling around in the mud and the mud puddle he had made with the water hose in the front yard by the street! Head to toe naked covered in red clay mud! Needless to say all the girls were scared and went home.......... More mental anguish from the helleson kids! I could only take a picture of the shoes- I am sure you get the rest of the picture! Not to mention, its been cold here- today it did get to the 70's- but it hadn't reached that yet- when he pulls his mud stunt!

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